How do you refer to this new year? "Two thousand and ten"? "0 ten"? I've heard both of these. I like "twenty ten." In any case, Happy New Year!
I've read all these great blog posts with comprehensive reflections on the past year and decade. I am one to worry so much about what tomorrow brings that I have hardly any mental energy left to look back on yesterday. I've written thousands of pages in my journal this past decade, but I've never gone back to read any entries. I don't know if it's that I have an easy time moving on (clearly, my struggles with anorexia would suggest otherwise); I think it's just that I'm an antsy person and I tend to look ahead rather than back. My mind is often stuck on wondering what's next.
That said, I acknowledge that 2009 was a big one for me. I got married and went on the most amazing trip of my life in Japan. Then I proceeded to freak out and split with my husband for a few months. Neither of us regret one thing about that period of time. We are closer than we ever were. It's just different, all for the better. We got two cat-children that we love so much it's sick. I got laid off, then got a full-time position with Larry's company. Got a new car. Finished writing a new book tentatively called "Cherry Blossoms" (just waiting for my agent to sell the previous one ;)). Saw one of my best friends and my sister get married. Turned 30. Went vegetarian. And a bunch of other random feats, including indoor "rock" climbing, the discovery of DVR (this was a big one for me), psychic readings by my massage therapist, and the cessation of my "exercise routine" (recently).
Phew.
I have to say that 2009 was tumultuous. It was a lot of change and growing pains. I'm looking forward to some peace and quiet in 2010. I told Larry that my one real resolution is to get better at ignoring the "shoulds." He said, "So, you're resolving not to resolve." I guess that's true. I could use a few less goals, a few less have to's in my life. I'd just like to let go a bit more, find out what I enjoy, feel confident in what I want. Easy, right? Not so much, which is why I plan to stick with therapy.
It's about 11 o' clock here on the West coast. Larry and I are on our respective computers, because we're nerdy like that. We just got back from Vegas, which reminds me of another resolution (for 2010 and beyond): Do not go to Las Vegas. We don't drink or gamble, and I feel way too old for the clubs now. We don't like crowds or smoking in indoor spaces (I forget that California is unique in its laws). The Black Eyed Peas concert was GREAT, and we really enjoyed Lion King. I like road trips too, so just driving and talking and listening to talk radio was fun. I had a few of my "moments," but I'm too tired to detail them. One involved me bitching about the price of a cab ride and feeling like my stingy grandmother (I call this "financial anorexia"). Moving on... I was just very happy to come home to my routine. Does anyone else get strangely excited to just be home?
Happy New Year, once again! Here's to good things in twenty ten :)
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Today's gratitude:
1. Got home safe from Vegas.
2. Got the car washed, went to Target, did the grocery shopping.
3. The kitties were just fine without us. I worried, of course, but the little monsters acted like they didn't even know we were gone.
4. My friend-of-15-years is in town tomorrow so I get to see her.
5. There is still a whole weekend ahead to enjoy before work on Monday!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
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As you know, I'm completely with you on most of your anti-resolutions and goals for the new year. It's a day-to-day, hour-to-hour thing--making choices for the now instead of worrying about what might just happen or what has already passed.
Since I haven't followed you that long, it was a great mini-recap of your year, and what a year it was! Considering the progress you've made, I have no doubt that 2010 will bring even more emotional and physical recovery. You sound like you're finding peace, the ultimate goal.
As for me, slight headache today, but no regrets about my New Year's. I think I fulfilled my social obligation for awhile, and to be honest, I prefer to be at home as well. However, once in awhile...
Vegas is gone (agreed on the craziness) and now you can regroup at home--my favorite place to be!
Happy New Year and sorry about the lame comment!
Happy New Year Kim, hope 2010 is a good one for ya!
You sound in a good place where you can say, 'yeah, so parts of 2009 were pretty shitty (pretty huge understatement there I know) but you know what, I'm glad they happened, Ive grown and learnt from them'
Vegas sounds mad - I heard that the casinos actually pump pure oxygen through the air conditioning system to keep you awake(and spending money obv). I love America.
Take care, Laura xxx
I use twenty ten as well, it sounds special.
I'm liking your New Year's philosophy Kim, and I think it's one well suited to you. You've had an immense year of twists and turns, and a quieter year to get to know yourself, and just enjoy being who you are, cannot be a bad thing. Happy New Year to you both
Lola x
What an amazing and challenging year you've had! I hope 2010 (I am saying twenty ten) is quieter for you. I think the idea of easing up on some goals is great. We don't need to do it all!
I don't think I would like Vegas! But, I LOVE the BEP!!! I wish I could go to their concert.
I love being home too. Even last night, we were having a great time with friends, but I couldn't wait to get home to my bed!
Happy 2010!
I'm calling it twenty ten--it seems the easiest way to say it. I'm with you on no resolutions! I'm tired of shoulds.
Wow - that was a big year! You and your husband were very wise to invest in cats. We adopted cats as newlyweds and they have helped us through a lot of storms!
I actually say both, but tend towards "twenty ten" most times.
I think 2009 was an amazing year for you. I think there were a lot of growth pains but you learned so much too. You forgot to write that you were very bloggy too!
I hope 2010 will be just an extension for you of continuing towards recovery, having your book published, and many other life fulfillments.
i have no need to go to vegas. i think it would depress me. however, if someone wants to take me to monte carlo....
you've had an amazing year. a lot happened -- ups and downs- but you've just grown in such wonderful directions. all your new thinking really inspires me.
i must say -- i need to go in a different direction financially. i spend as though i were mrs. bill gates. and i sure am not!!!!! i link this to my anorexia/bulimia/compulsive eating. thanks a lot ED.
Happy New Year!
Only been reading your blog for a short while, and this post was a great way to catch up, you've had such a busy time!
I felt compelled to comment because I'm completely with you on the "excited to be home" feeling, sometimes there's nothing better than being able to relax a bit and take stock. :)
Happy belated new year to you!
Sounds like you enjoyed your way of "bringing it in". I must admit that I'm not a huge fan of the hoopla surrounding the new year and resolutions, but I also like to take stock and look ahead. Plus, I have two starts to the "year" - calendar and academic. That seems to give me plenty of time to reflect and also to make new goals, whether they are small ones ("Go to the Hollywood Bowl!") or somewhat more grandiose.
I just got back from two weeks on the road, so I hear you about the comfort of home.
Hope that you have a great 2010 - it's been fun to "share" certain parts of 2009 with you. And, yes, here is to good things in the new year.
It will be great to watch Lion King, i have bought tickets from
http://ticketfront.com/event/Lion_King-tickets looking forward to it.
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